Not feeling right tonight...

what is wrong with me tonight? it suppose to be just another day but for whatever reason, it just doesn't feel right. i seem kinda lost, can see what is coming ahead of me, very blurry.

where are you? someone who can share my up & down.
you are the one, I am still waiting for you............

back alive........

Things seem to be falling in place now. Happy outcome from Sunday late night, a lot of pain & cheer. But isn't that what's life is all about. In order to feel the best out of all happiness, we must gone through some pain experience.

I will not say my life is completely back on track or I know exactly what the hell I'm doing.
But for whatever reason, I think it is improving or let say "it is getting better". At least I fell better.

I use to have a lot of high hope and feel extremely bad there are no miracle and far from something I can't reach. I often felt really "down" about it. I am trying to put all hope behind my back and keep on rolling through day by day. As long as I survive, I will eventually get what I want or enjoy what I do & what I had done!

Life must keep on rolling............

How is your life???

What a sunday....

Everything was all planned for the nice sunday. but nothing happen as planned.

It's been a long long wait Sunday and more waiting ahead. After that, upcoming week gonna be super busy........

I am not so looking forward to this week @ WORK NOR HOME........

Please pray that i will survive through this week...

2009

The years of 2009 got to be a years that i don't want to remember but it will be in my mind forever.

2009 included a lifetime of good & bad memories! Begin with the down side, i was literally sick throughout the years from all different parts of my body. I have never gone to the doctor that many time in the same years. I've got into a stupidest car accident at my own fault. I am still stuck in my job. I've wanted to change my job since the second week i was here. And 1 years 4 month later, i am still here (struggling). The first years ever in xmas without present. my whole family got something except me. Not complaining but sure not happy about it! The down side have taking nearly 80% of my memories for 2009. I seriously want to delete all my memories in 2009.

But there are several happy memories i want to keep forever in life. My lovely sister got married and i was the maid of honor (first time). I've got through bachelorette party @ Vegas , bridal shower @ home and less than 8 hrs of sleep in the last 3 days to the big days. Alot of work, not too much fun that day but alot of good memories. I had a out-of-country trip in June, watched a concert, meet up with oversea friend... tons of walking, very tired but also enjoy to be spend sometime relaxing (somehow). Had another short trip in November with family for concert (front row seat). Loves every moment spending with my family. They are always the best...

What's up in 2010?

My brother said he is planning to get marry. Another huge headache, but it should end up being another lifetime-memories for myself. I hope to have another out-of-country trip next years and able to find a new job that's i'm happy with. I also hope my Mr. Right will exist next years (I hope it is him). where is my MR. RIGHT?

Another years past by, all love and hate turn into memories... May there be many good time to come in 2010 & forward.

sweet...

The dream was very very blurry... But I remember I was with somebody, someone I'm glad to be with. the environment was just as the real life... Everything is very natural. I was very happy to be with that person, but his face was blur out.

I am trying to think hard and see how much I can remember, but not much.
It was a great sweet dream and something that make me happy.

I hope this will make me stay positive (something haven't happen in awhile).

OMG...

I knew this is not a good years from the very beginning of 2009, but I can't believe it is not over yet. Things is happening one after another, I just can't wait for this worst years of my life to be over.

又錯過了。。。

我覺得我今日又錯過咗一些機會。。。
唔知點解我第一個嘅反應係逃避，逃避過後又後悔。
我怕再唔珍惜就以後都無機會。

點解佢哋唔可以主動D呢？