Thursday, December 31, 2009

2009


The years of 2009 got to be a years that i don't want to remember but it will be in my mind forever.

2009 included a lifetime of good & bad memories! Begin with the down side, i was literally sick throughout the years from all different parts of my body. I have never gone to the doctor that many time in the same years. I've got into a stupidest car accident at my own fault. I am still stuck in my job. I've wanted to change my job since the second week i was here. And 1 years 4 month later, i am still here (struggling). The first years ever in xmas without present. my whole family got something except me. Not complaining but sure not happy about it! The down side have taking nearly 80% of my memories for 2009. I seriously want to delete all my memories in 2009.

But there are several happy memories i want to keep forever in life. My lovely sister got married and i was the maid of honor (first time). I've got through bachelorette party @ Vegas , bridal shower @ home and less than 8 hrs of sleep in the last 3 days to the big days. Alot of work, not too much fun that day but alot of good memories. I had a out-of-country trip in June, watched a concert, meet up with oversea friend... tons of walking, very tired but also enjoy to be spend sometime relaxing (somehow). Had another short trip in November with family for concert (front row seat). Loves every moment spending with my family. They are always the best...

What's up in 2010?

My brother said he is planning to get marry. Another huge headache, but it should end up being another lifetime-memories for myself. I hope to have another out-of-country trip next years and able to find a new job that's i'm happy with. I also hope my Mr. Right will exist next years (I hope it is him). where is my MR. RIGHT?

Another years past by, all love and hate turn into memories... May there be many good time to come in 2010 & forward.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

sweet...


The dream was very very blurry... But I remember I was with somebody, someone I'm glad to be with. the environment was just as the real life... Everything is very natural. I was very happy to be with that person, but his face was blur out.

I am trying to think hard and see how much I can remember, but not much.
It was a great sweet dream and something that make me happy.

I hope this will make me stay positive (something haven't happen in awhile).

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

OMG...


I knew this is not a good years from the very beginning of 2009, but I can't believe it is not over yet. Things is happening one after another, I just can't wait for this worst years of my life to be over.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

又錯過了。。。

我覺得我今日又錯過咗一些機會。。。
唔知點解我第一個嘅反應係逃避,逃避過後又後悔。
我怕再唔珍惜就以後都無機會。

點解佢哋唔可以主動D呢?

Friday, November 20, 2009

十年前的今天

還記得十年前嘅今日,係我地最後一次見面。
後悔以前無好好珍惜我哋相處嘅時候 。
討厭 自己對你的回憶越來越目模糊。

Monday, November 16, 2009

How much is it real???

I've know him for years now, but I don't know how much of his words is real.
He is very nice, kind and sweet. Seem like it is too real to be true that a good guy is in love with me. Now day that anything can happen, I worry it is a setup.

What should I do?

I've try not to talk to him but after awhile....I miss him.
We never talk about dating and all but we share a lot of personal thing and we both know that we mean something to each other (not just a normal friend). But due to distance issue, I feel like we aren't able to overcome that block to take our relationship to the next level. the longer we stay in this position the more I think we will stay as friend.

Sometime I worry he will tell me he have crush on other lady.
I'm getting confuse...

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Not a good day...




原來佢己經忘記我。。。
有一種難以形容的痛。。。
我嘅眼淚能否取得真正嘅快樂。。。

有無可以話我知,我重要等到幾時???

Thursday, November 5, 2009

沉重。。。



我的心情好"重"。。。唔知點解成曰都好唔開心。
明明知道有的D 開心嘅事要發生,但係又無個一份喜悅。
好像眼見快樂但得不到快樂。

常常處於黑暗之中。。。

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

今天的我

無諗過我寫嘅嘢會有人睇

今日嘅我比當日想放棄嘅我唔同。
其實放唔放棄根本唔輪到我哋選擇,好多人同事會影響我哋嘅決定。
所以我成日都好矛盾。。。到最後都係無結論。。。

希望它日的我能夠想通一切。。。

Thursday, October 22, 2009

放棄。。。

我同佢好似斷絕了所有聯繫。我是否應該認真考慮要放棄呢?

有無人可以給我一個指引。。。

Saturday, October 17, 2009

又過一日。。。

今曰嗰心情俾昨天好,不過仍然不滿昨天的黑馬賽果。。。

就算再行定不過的事,未到最後一分鐘都會有變數。。。
做人真係好無安全感。

究竟我嘅人生又會有幾多變數呢?又會發展成點呢?

Friday, October 16, 2009

意想不到


今日一早就俾一個想都想唔到嘅新聞影響咗我全日嘅心情。
個心情同情緒都好差!

原本己經寫咗好多嘅,不過又post 唔到。
以家又寫唔番出嚟!

算數。。。唔寫啦。。。

What an unpredictable day... ... ...

Thursday, October 15, 2009

佢。。。。。




我心裡面成曰都諗起佢﹐唔知佢有無諗起我呢?
我們上一次見面都已經一年多了﹐唔知佢會晤會主動約我呢?

我應唔應該主動搵佢呢?呢一個問題我問咗自己一年有多,都答唔到自己。
淨係識逃避。現在我知道已經沒有機會﹐因為他好像有女朋友了。

不過我心裡依然有他﹐希望我們還會有機會做個好朋友。。。
















Why





I've always wanted to start a blog to express myself but try not to let any of my surrounding to read it or even know about it. Why?

I've always feel that I've overloaded myself with question and thought inside of me. Something deep but I just can't share it with my family or best friend. Why?

Hope you are not someone I know... ...

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Tonight

希望這是一個好的開始。。。。。